But it sure is hard sometimes.
You know, trying to be good at it all. I find myself pulled in so many directions, giving emotionally until I am drained...or just a zombie.
I have to consistently fight off the beast of self-entitlement. The monster of self dominates my heart so many times..."I want," "I deserve," "I need..."
What I need is the strength of Jesus to die to myself and give...be a servant...fully. Oh, and do these things authentically.
I can be a good wife (the wife mask) and a good mom (the mom mask), and even a good homemaker sometimes (homemaking mask), but I don't always do them with an authentic heart that truly is.
Do you know what I mean? Can you relate?
I can fake it, sort of. I can make my husband breakfast, or give him the attention he longs for, but my heart isn't in it. I do it to be good, not because I have the honor and joy of fulfilling a beautiful God-given role.
Don't get me wrong, I do desire to have a cheerful heart and positive attitude in all of the domains the Lord has blessed me with, I just find myself more often then not "checking out" and just checking off a list. Sometimes it's easier to pretend then to be.
In our culture, we don't want to do "hard things." The thing is, it's those "hard things" that grow our character and bring us into a deeper and more fulfilling intimacy with the Lord. It's those "hard things" that will have us looking back with gratefulness rather than regret. And it's those "hard things" that will bring eternal value to our lives and the lives of others.
My motivation for the day? Keep persevering. Never stop. Trust the promises of God.
He made me a woman, a mommy, a wife, and a keeper of my home. He will honor my obedience, and when I disobey or "check out" He will guide me back. He begins softly nudging my heart, knowing and understanding my struggles. If I choose to only wear the mask and neglect my heart attitude, He will pursue me with more might. I am His. I may fail Him, but He will never fail me.
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