Do you ever feel like all of a sudden you can't control your lips and words fling out that you later regret and feel like a shrew for?
Um, that's me most mornings and evenings when I'm a total crank, and yes, those are the times my poor hubby is home.
What's a gal to do?
Yesterday morning (miraculously) I actually kept my mouth shut when I was feeling very "attitudy" towards my husband for something. On top of my non-morning-persona-but-still-getting-up-early-anyway thing, the kiddos woke up way early and I seriously CRIED! But, I hid my tears, prayed that God would help me be positive and "tame the tongue," I persevered and by the GRACE OF GOD managed to put a smile on my face and eventually one in my heart.
Did you catch that? A smile in my heart.
My attitude is the hardest thing for me to tame. If my attitude were better, my words would be much gentler and kinder.
"From the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks." Matthew 12:34
Oh how I wish my thoughts were always rosy and sweet, but alas, they are not. My mind often fills with judgement, negativity, and criticism - most of the time toward the man who I love so dearly. I am praying about this and I try to think often on what a good man my husband is, but he could be perfect and my crankiness just seems to win more battles then it loses.
Last week, I actually told my three year old that I was going to sit on the step until I could be positive (this is what I do with her when she is whiny). She thought that was a good idea. Can you say humbling?
What do you do to push out crankiness and a negative attitude?
O let them never
From the tongue, unbridled slip.
With the soul's best impulse
Ever check them,
Ere they soil the lips.
Angry words are quickly spoken,
Bitter thoughts are rashly stirred.
Fondest links of life are broken.
By a single angry word.